what if
after our very last breath
an
EXIT sign
lights up
and tells us
where to go
what if we want to go
in a different direction
what if there are
NO directions
what if
we are all asleep
right now
dreaming
our current reality
into being
and life
is nothing more
than that
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I don’t know if ghosts
mind being wispy
although I’m sure they have a good time
changing shapes
and walking through walls
but if they’re caught in a wind storm
it’s probably not all that much
fun
I wonder if they hang around
because of unfinished business
or because they’re waiting for someone
maybe they just miss their stuff
or they’re addicted to living
there are probably a million reasons
WHY
they do it
but how can they read
if they can’t turn the page
and how can they pet a cat
or eat ice cream
seems like there are a lot of
downsides
to consider
I’m not sticking around
that’s for sure
but just like in life
I suppose
everyone
gets to choose
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many people believe that
LOVE
is the answer to
every question
but no one
ever defines
the word
LOVE
especially
in the context
of the
question
being asked
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How can someone be acquitted when there are witnesses who can testify to wrongdoing BUT THEY ARE NOT ALLOWED TO SPEAK? How is it possible that EVERYONE KNOWS that there is damning evidence THAT IS NOT ALLOWED TO BE HEARD? How does that NOT make someone guilty as charged?
How is it possible for a government and the legal system to say something does not exist when we all know it does? Take Area 51. We have pictures of it. It’s a no fly over zone, but satellites can still take pictures of it and we have photographs of it from long ago.
It’s HEAVILY guarded, as is the entire surrounding area, where no one is allowed to go. There are motion sensors in the ground so sensitive it can pick up the movement of a snake. WE CAN SEE THE PLACE.
The people who work there are flown in and out on white unmarked planes. There are pictures of that as well. A woman’s husband, who died from working there, couldn’t win her case in court because they said the place did not exist, even thought he went there everyday and was hurt (poisoned) on the job. The lawyer had picture of the work site in his hand and the judge said the place did not exist. The lawyer was so upset. He didn’t understand that the world is made of lies. Now he knows.
For a place that doesn’t exist I wonder why they have signs up that say they will kill you if you try to get in there. I wonder why the president is not allowed to enter Area 51.
But most of all, I wonder WHO IS IN CHARGE OF A PLACE THAT THE PRESIDENT CANNOT ENTER? Who is telling him that he can’t come in? Who is actually running the country/world that we don’t know about? We certainly are not in charge, that’s for sure. And yet, we go about our lives, slaving away for who? You might say, for ourselves, but we’re just hamsters on a wheel.
Who is calling the shots? Who is in charge? And why do we allow others to say they will kill us if we go where nothing is supposed to exist?
Billy Clinton promised to find out about things. A lot of presidents have said they would find out about information that’s hidden from the public, and none of them could do it. When asked, they all changed the subject. I can’t remember which prez it was but Geo Bush Sr., told him to shut up and no one was going to tell him anything. It was above his level.
And where were Obama and Clinton taken, and by what people, when they wee announcing who would be running for president. They disappeared and even the secret service didn’t know where they went. When they came back, Obama was running and Clinton shut up. Who took them? What happened?
We are the sheep in a huge, tightly controlled field. You know what happens to sheep, don’t you?
Do you ever wonder why so many people are trying to escape their lives through alcohol and drugs, or any of the other things people escape into, including suicide? Does the fact that so many people are seemingly unhappy, or lost, mean anything? It it natural to feel that way, or are we, as a world full of people, screwing up big time? I wonder about things like that.
We see what may be construed as symptoms, but what, exactly, is the disease? Is it life in general? The unfairness of life? Is it disappointment, frustration…what? Can whatever it is be fixed? Is it hopelessness, the never ending wars, violence, or the belief that things will never get better? Is the 24 hour news, full of lies, driving people to depression? That’s actually a tactic, by the way, because if you make people afraid, or miserable, and promise to save them, they’ll vote for you, or let you make decisions for them. You know how that turns out, right? A lot of people seem to have given up. Government, the church, industry…they are all failing the people.
People used to believe their lives were successful if their children were more well off than they had been. That’s no longer possible for a huge number of people. Is that part of it? Is it the economy that’s controlled by the rich to make sure we’re kept poor, what’s making everyone unhappy? I definitely think that’s part of the problem.
Is pot becoming legal to take the edge off, so that people won’t even think of looking behind the curtain, because they’re too busy chowing down on Froot Loops?
What’s going on? Monopolies are taking over the country, retail is almost a thing of the past, our choices, while seemingly endless, are actually limited by what’s available through one or two HUGE on-line stores. People shop from home, seeing fewer and fewer people all the time. Are we losing touch with each other? Jobs are getting worse, benefits cut, the top brass voting themselves raise at the expense of their employees.
I feel as if I’m watching one of those end of times films at the movies. Grown children living in basements in their parents’ home…with their own kids. A couple of days ago, my granddaughter, in college, said one of the guys at work, going on 40, lives with his mother and, “While a lot of KIDS do that now days, his mother still calls in for him if he’s sick and he’s a little old for that.” I couldn’t believe she said that. The fact that she believes that “a lot of people do that,” is so weird, I can hardly believe it. The fact that he lived at home wasn’t as horrible to her as the fact that his mother called in for him. What? She did say he was too old to be living with his mom.
What’s happening? Seriously, things get crazier all the time. This does not seem like a path we want to continue going down. Lots of OLDER adults are still caring for their adult children AND grandchildren. Some of them are poor or stretched to the limits with fixed incomes.
I won’t even mention the homeless people.
Maybe some of you have ideas about what’s going on but it seems that taking responsibility for your own actions is disappearing and that the things we once believed were good for self respect and life, have kind of gone missing. Our values aren’t just changing, they are disappearing. Standing on your own two feet, which seemed like the thing to do, doesn’t mean anything to some people today AND some kids feel that it’s better to continue living at home, rather than get job they feel is BENEATH them.
I think we should go back to the 60s and dance in the streets, wear flowers in our hair, and take over the Dean’s office until our demands are met. Where’s Timothy Leary when you need him. Which reminds me, I never finished his book, I’ll have to do that.
What did we do to end up on this violent spinning rock? Was it just an accident of sperm meets egg? Did we choose to come here, picking our parents and life they could give us…before we allowed our consciousness to wake up on the day we were born? Were we sentenced by a jury to do time in this place? Or were we bought and paid for by the guys who are running the show? Are we in someone’s holographic game? Are we a lab experiment or an alien jest? Any of those things can be true. We don’t have a clue what happened before we got here and we don’t have a clue what’s going to happen when we leave. We can’t have any answers, which simply leads to more questions. Questions without answers. That’s all we have. We are rats in a maze. Sometimes there’s cheese and sometimes there isn’t. But one thing for sure…there aren’t any answers.
“How was poetry day?”
“Good. Everyone was into it. Mr. Mark liked my poem but Susan got so angry reading hers that he made her sit down. She’s definitely going to become a divorce lawyer. Lisa wrote about springtime but it was kind of bland. Most of the kids did loud and angry poems. It was fun. We’re gong to do it again an a couple of weeks.”
“Sound like a plan.”
“They’re setting up a fake wall in the parking lot so we can learn to do graffiti.”
“How wonderful. I’ll take a picture at the end of the day.”
“We can frame it.”
“We certainly can.”
“If no one was here, would the universe exist?”
“Debatable. Some physicists think it would not. Some think it would. No definitive answer. It could be that our awareness makes things real. But that might not be true. We don’t know and I don’t see how we can find out because if we test it, that means we’re here and so is everything else. It is possible that other universes exist because other things are aware of them. We don’t know.”
“It’s interesting though, isn’t it?”
“Absolutely. Like what was here before anything was here? It had to start from something. Hawking’s believes that all the energy was locked into a tiny, microscopic mote. But where did the things inside the dot come from? It’s a never ending thing and I don’t know if we’ll ever find the beginning. Our brains want beginnings, they long for beginnings and answers. Can something just pop into existence? From nothing and nowhere?”
“Maybe I’ll be a scientists instead of a writer.”
“Your choice. You could even be both.”
“Maybe. Might be a lot of work.”
“You don’t have to decide today.”
“That’s true.”
“You have time to think about things.”
“A Native American is coming to tell us about how we are destroying the earth.”
“They are the keepers, so they would know.”
“The keepers?”
“Yes, the Spirits have entrusted them with secrets and answers to all living things and they know that we are doing terrible things to the earth but no one will listen to them because white powerful, rich, men don’t care about the earth or anything on it. They are greedy and care only for immediate gratification.”
“Like when you eat a whole bag of cookies. Immediate gratification?”
“Exactly like that.”
“He’s going to tell us a lot of things about the animals and the elements.”
“You are a lucky boy.”
“I know that but I don’t know why everyone isn’t lucky.”
“Because the world is unfair, Baby, that’s why. If you were born to different parents, had different color skin, believed in different things, looked a different way, came from a different place, then you’re life would be completely different. You are the way you are because all those pieces came together and made you this way. Genes, location, position in society, economic status, all of that allows you to be you. It’s that way for everyone and it’s not fair at all. It’s mean and hateful.”
“We aren’t very bright, as a species.”
“To put it mildly.”
“Maybe I’ll write about that next week.”
“Excellent idea.”
“Can I have ice cream?”
“You can have anything you want. Ice cream is always a good idea.”
“You’re a weird kind of mom. You know that, right?”
“Just being me, Baby. Just being me.”
“Love you.”
“Love you too.”
who we are
what we are
where we came from
where we are going
why we’re here
what we’re supposed to do
what the universe is
what’s beyond what we think is out there
what IS out there
whether anything actually means anything
how much power we each has that is being kept from us
if we are simply a pocket dimension
if we’re real
if anything is real
why we ARE violence
what time is
what exists beyond time
where black holes lead
why entropy exists (not the scientific version, but WHY it’s here, not what it does because it’s here)
if peace is possible, or real
if we simply slide from one life into another and another, for eternity
if there is an eternity
what love is
why we refuse to cooperate
why we insist on destroying the planet and life in general
religion/cult exists to divide us
why there is so much hatred
why disease exists
why so many accept their conditioning and brainwashing
We can explain some of these things with what we consider to be logic, science, beliefs, etc. but the truth is, we don’t really know anything and all. All of our definitions are from our human minds and our minds are limited because they are inside of us. Everything we see is filtered through the human mind. Being human only lets us see a tiny bit of what actually is. And if you ask, how I know that, just think of the fact that we can’t see in the dark, in infra red, can’t see like eagles can, smell like dogs can, can’t do a million tiny things that other living beings can do. That’s because our brain isn’t set for those things, which means we are limited to what our brains allow.
read more than one book at a time
like their toast dark and crispy
love chocolate
like to travel
go barefoot whenever they can
long to have the body they did when they were seventeen
adore cats
think summer and maybe spring are the best seasons
love the ocean
have fun in Las Vegas
understand that bread actually is the staff of life
wish they weren’t too old to ride a skateboard
feel surprised when their kids turn into adults
love ice cream
think pizza is one of the best things ever
constantly buy books to add to their never ending TBR (to be read) pile
write/draw in their books
love nature
wish war would end
miss brick and mortar bookstores
think that Amazon is going to take over the world
love music
wish the people they loved wouldn’t die before they did
wish politicians were human
think the “isms” are evil
think watermelon is the best melon
think every gun should be melted down
believe fracking should be stopped immediately
feel that poisoning the earth/water/air is wrong
think that GMOs should be banned, as they are in other countries
think that kindness matters
that some differences can never be bridged
think that you don’t have to like people because they happen to be family
want to be free
like to wade int he wet sand at the edge of the ocean
think birds are absolutely gorgeous
believe that life should be fun
believe that no one should go hungry
feel that men should stop hurting women and children
think that pie is something special
believe that most people like to sing, even if they can’t
believe that we’re all just trying to survive
l
…that we know the truth
about anything
…that there there
has ever been an
honest politician
…that diversity
is the answer
to a lot of our
problems
…that America
is a joke
…that freedom
no longer exists
…that war
across the entire planet
is our future
…that children are
being uneducated in
schools
…that art
needs to be
more political
…that our government
will start killing people
in the streets
…that sunshine
is the best medicine
…that children and adults
are over medicated
…that militarizing the police
is a horrific idea
…that junk food
is actually good
for us
…that people
still love to read
…that news programs
should be removed
from TV because they
are bad for our health
…that the so called president
should be removed from office
because he’s bad for the health of
our country
…that kids should be able to
read comic books for book
reports in school
…that teachers should not
have to follow all the rules
…that hunters should be
hunted
…that religion
should be abolished
…that rapist priests
should go to jail
for life
…that stuffed animals
are real when we
aren’t looking at them
…that bullies are
given special privilages
…that teen suicide
should be a WARNING
that we are doing somehtng
WRONG
…that we need to
ask more questions
…that we should stop being
nice and make more demands
…that we should teach kids
that they are lied to all the time
…that we should realized that WE
are being lied to all the time
…that hot chocolate is
delicious
…that chocolate chip cookies
are better when warm
…that candy corn
is weird
…that adults wish
they could dress up
and be silly more
than once a year
on Halloween
..,that life will
ever be open
to everyone
…that bread
is beautiful
…that sick people
with no hope of recovery
should be allowed to die
with dignity
…that being
barefoot is
the best thing ever
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