Random thoughts…
one of the cousins
said that she’s glad they have a
BIG family
that way she doesn’t have to talk
to anyone she doesn’t like
when they all get together
she said she only goes to church
because she can’t sing
anywhere else
people like that
are fun to be around
It bothers me
that an act of kindness
can make people cry
or feel that there’s hope
in the world
are acts of kindness
SO RARE
that they stand out
and break hearts
shouldn’t they be
NORMAL
and barely noticeable
Why is it okay for a fat man
to break into every house
during the holidays
as long as he leaves
gifts
why can’t we have
Christmas Cookes
all year long
snowballs are delicious
but having them
everyday
would probably grow tiresome
and then what would
we have for
Christmas
so…then no
is everyone
easily distracted
when they have to
clean the house
it takes ten times longer
because now I’m writing this
instead of getting
things done
sometimes it feels as if
I don’t really live with a cat
I only see her when she’s hungry
or when I look behind the couch
to see her when she’s sleeping
but she’s getting Catmas gifts
like more fuzzy blankets
and a bit of nip
so she can sleep
anywhere she likes
in comfort
she is definitely
the boss of me
why does the woodpecker
constantly peck holes
in the cedar on my house
I have patches
all over the place
and he’s back again
my neighbor said
it’s because all the
birds and animals
know they can come her
and it’s a safe zone
I’m thinking she’s wrong
about the bird
I went to Ikea
with my cousin yesterday
I bought some more
Swedish stuff
I don’t actually “identify”
as anything but Italian
even though I’m half Swedish
I do it for my mom
who couldn’t care less
it’s not like she’s watching me
and if she was
she’d be saying
“she never cared when I was alive
now look at her
Swedish horses and ornaments
everywhere”
sorry for being a brat mom
you were right
brat really should have been my name
I’m still Italian
that’s why you never understood me
you were the nice one
surrounded by loud
crazy people
sorry again
for a lot of things
It’s weird
when your kids
and grandchildren
grow up to be
taller than you are
why is it that
everything we love to eat
is bad for us
life is just
mean that way
it constantly teases us
into believe that we can have
everything we want
then laughs at us
when we find out
that was just one more lie
I will eat all the fries I want to eat
and when I die
the two people who will care
will say
she ate chocolate
cookies
pizza
and fries
and died a happy woman
now someone get her cat
from behind the couch
but be gentle
because she’s sleeping
why does GPS
always take us
out of the way
why isn’t the sun
strong enough
to burn through the clouds
and give us a break
once in awhile
a little LIGHT
now and then
would be NICE
the sun is eventually
going to fry us to death
but at the moment
we are living in the dark
when we are extinct
I wonder if we’ll all be sitting around
in a different dimension
talking about all the things we didn’t do
and should have
or if we will be planning
on reincarnating
on some other helpless planet
and begin the destruction
all over again
anyway
just some things
I’ve been thinking
about
Written
on October 12, 2020