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Close Up, Swallows, Summer, Schwalbe


The tree…a short story

People came to see the tree.  They said they felt something when they were around it.  Some brought books and food and stayed for days, reading and communing with the tree itself.  A few thought the tree was breathing.  They watched carefully and said they could see it inhaling.

Artists came. They sang to the tree and danced around it.  Some drew pictures, others painted.  A famous violinist played classical music until he exhausted himself and fell to his knees.  He said he had never played that well in front of any audience in the world.

No one touched the branches, or the tree itself.  They somehow knew that that would be crossing a line of some kind.

Religious people came and prayed to the tree, all of them asking for something.  They chanted and begged.  Some took a pinch of dirt and put it in a box, or locket, and wore it on their heads or necks.  They believed that the tree was sacred, holy, god’s work.

Children came and screamed and shouted as they ran around playing and laughing.  They looked at the tree and waved, then they giggled, and smiled at it, before they started doing cartwheels and jumping jacks.

Businessmen came and tried to figure out how they could make money off of the tree.  Maybe they could cut it up and sell the pieces.  Fence it in and charge people to see it.

The government came and tried to figure out how to make the tree into a weapon.  They decided they couldn’t kill enough people with it, at least not the way it was, so they were going to form a Blue Book Secret Committee to figure a better way to use it.

Group by group visited the tree until the flow of people finally stopped.

Then one day a girl walked by.  She saw the tree and said, “I didn’t realize that Death was so beautiful.”  She climbed the branches, until she found one she liked.  Then she sprawled across it and sighed.  “You are SO comfortable.”  She tried to turn on her side and almost fell.  She laughed so hard, she almost fell again.  Then she sat on the branch and swung her feet back and forth.  “You’re not very tall,” she said, looking up.  “You’re just right.”

It started to get dark, so she laid down on the branch and looked at the moon and stars. “If you had leaves, I wouldn’t be able to see the sky,” she said.  “Thanks for picking me up.” When she took her last breath, the tree simply wrapped it’s branches around her and they both disappeared.

Weeks later, the government returned with three scientists.  When they saw that the tree was gone, they accused another country of stealing it and set off an international incident and the possibility of WW III.


Okay, so…

Another thing about so called history…the person writing it, is usually from a different era, unless is’s current history, only a few years old.  I mean yesterday can be considered history, so there is that.  But I’m talking about history that took place long ago.

If the writer is American, then what s/he writes will be seen through American eyes.  It will also be seen through the thoughts of the current ERA.  Both will impact what is written.

Prejudices, biases, resentment and all the other feelings people, or countries, may have for each other, come through in what they write.  We do that with the North and South, with cities and the country.

History is conjecture and play acting.  For many, history is learned through movies or novels.  Rarely do kids learn history in school.  Ask anyone what they remember.

“Write what you know,” isn’t that the advice everyone gets?  Well, history is made up of guesses, probabilities, imagination and propaganda.  Even in the past propaganda was used to control the masses.  We have absolutely no idea what people thought, except through the scraps of writing or hieroglyphs left behind and those things were written for gods, or written by people who could actually WRITE.

There’s a program on PBS called FINDING YOUR ROOTS.  The guests on it, have no clue as to their own family history.  I don’t know anything about mine, after my grandparents.  Nothing at all.  A lot of us don’t have a past that we know about.  And that’s right now, while we are alive.  History is a shadowy thing.  We don’t know what happened a couple of generations ago but we act as if we know what people in Egypt thought, or what Americans lived through, when they were slaughtering Native Americans.  I think that’s crazy.  Where are the books written by Native Americans, about that period in time?  Why aren’t books by them taught in school, so kids know what we DID TO THEM, you know small pox blankets and all the rest?  How can we teach history and leave the IMPORTANT THINGS OUT?  The things actual people LIVED THROUGH?

And current history, well, how much truth do you think are on those pages, when they lie to our faces.  Tricky Dick?  Johnson and the war, the idiot in office now?

History is: omissions, secrets and lies.

There are alternative histories.  Those are the histories told by the people left out of the things kids have been taught.  Those are the histories told by women and minorities, which do not agree with, or have anything to do with, the white male history we’ve had shoved down our throats.  That’s why they have Black History Month and Women’s History Month.  The ten other months belong to while males, well those two months belong to them too, they just step back to shut us up and act like they’re giving us something.  If you don’t think that’s a joke and a tell, you need to think again.  History is all about white rich males and power.

No one can write history if they don’t know what’s going on and no one knows what’s going on.  There has been so much suppression of information for so long.  Women had to publish under male names, minorities couldn’t get published…what kind of history does that make?  It makes a false one, that’s the kind of history it makes.


Today is: National Chewing Gum Day

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A longish short story…about bookstores, James Joyce, authors and other things

“You can’t possibly be serious,” he said, his eyes wide.  “Opening a bookstore in the city is insane.  All the bookstores have closed.  Well, most of them anyway.  You’ll be an independent and you know what that means.  No one is going to give you MONEY.”

“I didn’t say it would be easy,” she said.

“Tell me why you want to do this,” he asked.

“Because so many books are written about bookstores in small towns and I don’t like to read books about small towns and how intertwined everyone’s life is and how they all know everyone’s business and then some guy walks in and it’s true love on the spot and then, after I throw up from the same old same old, I swear I’ll never read a book about a bookstore again.”

“Oh.  You should have just said that in the beginning.  I get that.  Still.  Maybe you should just write a book about a city bookstore, where no one knows anything about anyone else and no one finds true love when a plumber or lumberman walks in with his pig.”

“Pig? And why would a lumberman be in the city with a pig, even if he had one?”

“I was thinking farmer.”

“Ah.  There’s probably a book about that one too.  Oh, and don’t forget, most of the bookstores are left to the woman after she worked there with some relative while she was growing up.  The store is broke, and she is supposed to save it with no money or experience.  But she does it, after finding hidden letters, or pictures, that tell her secrets about her mother and grandmother.   Then she finds out that her father wasn’t her real father but the man who sold christmas trees at thanksgiving next to the hardware store.”


“I want to read books about bookstores, just not those books.”

“Well,” he said.  “You know the old saying…write the book you want to read.”

“It’s probably a lot easier than opening a shop,” she agreed.


“There’s usually a divorce in there too, that’s why the woman can travel to wherever the bookstore she inherited is located.  She’s running from a broken heart.  They’re all the same book with different titles and covers.  Although, there were a few good ones and they all took place in a city.”

“You’re just not used to people who live in towns and know what what everyone is doing, or not doing.”

“I wouldn’t last a day.  That’s called nosey and none of your business, where I come from.”

“You’re a hard-core city chick.”

“Excuse me?”

“Woman, I meant WOMAN,” he said, backing up.

She glared at him.  “Sometimes there’s a dog or cat in the book and that’s the most interesting part.  Although I stopped reading them a long time ago.  I don’t understand how people like that live.  If I was born in a place where people looked in your windows,  I would crawl away as soon as I could hold up my own head.  Grab a few bottles out of the fridge, my stuffed animal and blanket and hit the road.”

“You’d get lost the minute you were out in front.”

“There is that,” she laughed.

“You have no sense of direction at all.”

“Another reason to be in the city.  Someone can say turn right by the sky scraper with the red thing out in front.  Not the same as turn by the old oak tree and the cow.  What if the cow is in the barn?”

“You’re just being silly and you have GPS.”

“I guess.  But I’m serious about those books. They are all interchangeable.  And another thing I don’t like is when they say that a book is like Harry Potter, or Janet Evanovitch, or Jim Butcher.  THEY AREN’T EVER LIKE ANY OF THOSE BOOKS.  That’s false advertising and a con.”

“Wow you’re really in a mood.  What’s up?”

“I hate James Joyce.”

“No kidding.  Why?”

“He screwed Sylvia Beach out of everything.  All that woman did for that moron…she went bankrupt and he never gave her a cent, or even a proper thank you.  They had a contract and he went behind her back and sold the rights to the book SHE PUBLISHED, for $45,000 and never gave her a penny.  Ungrateful jerk.  I wouldn’t sell his books in my shop.”

“You don’t have a shop.”

“Well, he won’t be in the shop I write about in my book.”


“I think I’m finished.  Thanks for listening.”

“You’re welcome.  When are you going to start your book?”


“What are you going to call it?”


“I’d go with the second one.”

“That’s probably best.”

“I love you.”

“I know.”

“Don’t you love me too?”

“Of course, but that’s just like those books, you already know what the person’s going to say, so I was saving it until later when you didn’t expect it.”

“Why does that make sense to me?”

“You’re just used to me, that’s all.”

“I don’t think that will ever happen,” he snickered.  “You’re one surprise after another.”

“If there are any books by Joyce or Hemingway on our shelves we need to recycle them.”

“You hate Hem too?”

“He hit women and was another moron.  Lied about what he did and he was mean and ungrateful to Scott Fitzgerald and lots of other stuff.”

“Maybe you shouldn’t read about authors, or you won’t like any of them.  They’re all human and humans aren’t nice.”

“Maybe I’ll just read about women authors and artists.”

“Good idea.”

“And no small towns.  Sometimes they cry in those books too.  Blah.”

“You have a very limited emotional range.”

“Thank the Goddess for THAT!” she said.

“Not everyone would agree.”

“Like I care.”

He laughed.  “See what I mean?”


“You’re hard and often unyielding.”


“Not with cats, or other animals.”


“Why?” he asked.

“You have to be tough to survive. Life will eat you up and spit you out, unless you beat it to a pulp and kick it to the curb.”

“You believe that?”

“I do, since it’s true for me.”

“Okay.  Can’t argue with that.”

“No, you really can’t.  I’m really mad at Sylvia for letting Joyce take advantage of her but I like her so very, very much and she was kind.  Those lessons are things I remember.  Kindness gets you walked on.”

“Not always.”

“Pretty much.  So, since I refuse to be mad at Ms. Beach, because she’s a favorite of mine, I despise that conceited and moronic Joyce, because he knew what he was doing and he took everything from her and gave nothing back.”

“Well, he did make her famous.”


“Never mind.”

“She lived through hardship and poverty because of him.”

“I know.”

“She had to borrow money because of him.  Her relationship with her friend was strained, because of him, she lost customers, because she spent so much time TAKING CARE OF HIM.”

“No one made her do it.”


“It was her choice.”

“You need to be really careful now.  About what you say.”


“So I don’t…do something you’ll be sorry for.”

“What will you do?”

“I’m thinking,” she said.  “There’s a lot on the list of what I can do.”


She nodded and concentrated.  Then she went to him, hopped up, he caught her, and she wound her legs around his waist and kissed him again and again.

He groaned and she jumped down and walked away.

“HEY!” he said.  “Where are you going?  You can’t just walk away.”

She turned and said, “THAT’S WHAT HE DID TO HER!  That’s exactly what he did to her.”








Featured Post: Juliet Takes a Breath – Georgiann Carlson — Brave & Reckless

Juliet takes a breath
and stops listening to
her own heartbeat
and instead
listens to the world
fall apart
is gone
is on Her knees
the world
is in free fall
everything is
men hunt us
they want to control
our bodies
she wants to
warn other women
to stay still
to not turn on
the lights
to trust no one
and remember
to keep their
guns loaded
and their
knives sharp
then join
their sisters
and take
back the
and their

via Featured Post: Juliet Takes a Breath – Georgiann Carlson — Brave & Reckless

Okay, so…

No matter how many books are written, or read, we can never know what took place in the past.  When written by those who lived during a certain time, we simply get their personal point of view.  Those who do research, piece those personal points of view together and try and give us a bigger picture.  But the things they find, have been written by educated people, usually by men, in specific places.  There are few facts and many opinions and lies.

Our view of history is a sham, written by those who had money and were in charge of what was printed.  Fortunately, we have diaries and accounts from people who wrote down what their lives were like.  If we didn’t, we would think there were no women in the past and that children simply appeared of their own accord.  Until recently, no one mentioned what they went through, crossing the land in wagons, pregnant, caring for the sick, wounded, children and doing EVERYTHING else.  We never get more than a bird’s eye view of what the men in charge want us to know.  Lies, omissions and more lies and omissions.

The truth is, even if you’re right there, when something happens, you’ll get as many stories as there are people.  And, those who weren’t there will be writing about what happened as well, even though they have no first hand knowledge of the event/s.

So, history is a kind of joke.  We can’t ever know what happened in the past.   We are simply trying to put pieces of a gigantic puzzle together without a picture on the front of the box.  We can’t know.  We DON’T know.  And again, most of history was written by MEN, white men, white rich men.  Those men don’t write about the rapes, the murders, the terrible things that are done to normal everyday people, however.  Those things are left out.

I think we should stop teaching lies to every generation, as if we were telling them something that was real.  There’s nothing in the books about the manipulation the treachery and all the terrible things our own men and country did.  We aren’t supposed to know about that.  How we destroyed other countries, enslaved their women, for the use of our soldiers.

It’s happening today.  The lies continue.  History is distorted and stretched so that even if there’s a shred of truth on a page, one has to question it’s authenticity. WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT OUR GOVERNMENT IS DOING AT THIS VERY MOMENT.  The history that is being made right now is shrouded in darkness and WE THE PEOPLE don’t have a clue as to what’s going on.  That’s what history is…hidden agendas, lies, lies, and more lies.  It has always been that way.   People write history books without having all the information since we are never allowed to know what’s going on.  We are lied to constantly and that’s why history is a lie.  We are constantly lied to by the people who are running the show.  Again, rich white males in office and in charge.

The brutality,  hatred, cruelty, and LIES  of what our country does to us, as well as to others, is simply covered up, left out, erased.  History isn’t real.  History is FICTION.

I’m reading a couple of books right now that give an entirely different slant on what Paris was like in the 20s.  It’s written by a woman and it’s about women living in Paris, during that time.  It starts by saying that the history we know of that time, was written by men who were drunks and spent their time in brothels and chasing women who did not want to be caught.  The men, who were turned away by those women, tried to destroy their reputations and careers for spite.  Lying and doing what they could to punish them for not giving them what they wanted.   So, part of the history of that time period, was filled with lies, written by men who were turned away by women who refused them.

All I’m saying is that we teach something called history when it should be called Lies and other Fictional Stories.  Factual history would be made up of things like:  The first train ran on this date.  It took this long to get where it was going.   Anything else is pure fiction and should be taken with a ton of salt.

Men lie and men wrote history.  Jefferson didn’t talk about all his slaves and how he had them move through underground tunnels to SERVE him.  Someone else found out about that and the fact that his mother owned 144 slaves.  So, if another person didn’t give his POV and find out about the things that were LEFT OUT OF THE HISTORY BOOKS, no one would have ever known about those lies and omissions.

History is whatever the person writing about it says it is.  Now women are writing and history looks much different.  History is BIG and ENCOMPASSING and cannot be fit into one man’s opinion.

Women’s diaries and writings have given us a different view of our past.  A view that was intentionally left out.  Minorities and women have always been erased by white men.  That means that what we considered to be history was not only incredibly incomplete,  it was faulty and pretty much a lie by omission.

I realize that a lot of people reading this won’t like it.  But we are force fed what the guys in charge want us to know.  Everything else is hidden.  That’s what disinformation is for.  It’s to make the truth look like lies and the lies look like truth.  People who tell the truth have to flee or are killed.  One whistleblower said, to a group of people he was speaking in front of, that the government would kill him for what he was saying.  He was found dead, strangled.  It was called a suicide.  His wife said the government murdered him but no one is listening to her.  History is filled with lies and omissions.  It’s not really history it’s propaganda.  


Today is: National Coffee Day…enjoy

Coffee Beans, Coffee Cup, Cup, Coffee

The conversation…

the owl
said that she was looking for
a snowy owl whose stage name was
she told me that he had
a part in several films
but that no one had heard from him
in a very long time
I told her that I didn’t know where he was
but the films were finished
a long time ago
she sighed
fluttered her wings
and thanked me
she said that some owls
were like that
and she would just tell his mother
that he was having a
she said she lived in the tree next to his
and they had grown up together
he always wanted to be an actor
whereas she enjoyed
being in the open field
I told her
it was a pleasure
meeting her
since it’s not often
that owls
talk to people
she told me
her name was
White Feather
and that Hedwig’s
real name was Tom
we said our goodbyes
and I felt very fortunate
to have been in the right place
at the right time
to have a conversation
with an owl

The end…is sometimes a beginning…a very short story

Smoke, Human, Alone, Weird, Drugs, Meditation, Night

He had reached the end of the line.  There was no going back and he didn’t know what waited for him in the darkness.  He sat quietly, eyes closed, contemplating his life and how he had lived it.  He was as honest as he could be, about what he had and had not done, and he was satisfied.  He remained sitting, letting things fall away, saying goodbye to those he loved and once thought important.

When he opened his eyes he was staring at his own face.  He no longer resided inside the body in front of him.  He looked familiar, but from outside, he might not have recognized himself on the street.  He was amazed at what he was seeing.  As for what he was now, well he was wisps of what remained of his aura.  He was smoke and energy.

Finished with earthly things,  he was ready to move on.   He was free from the weight of the world, from responsibilities, from all the heavy things that held people down and drained their energy and joy.

That’s was the moment he joined in the singing of the universe.

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