I know so many people who are desperately unhappy, right now. Some wish they were dead. It’s difficult, even impossible, to be able to see a better ending, when you’re in that terrible place. Everything seems hopeless. Words don’t help, because people in that position can’t really understand them, can’t see anything ever changing, even when they know that change is the only constant in life. People in that place just don’t care. When you don’t care, things are truly hopeless.
Everyone is tired. Tired of fighting what’s happening to them, knowing that they can’t accept what’s going on around them. Knowing that they can’t change other people and tired of trying. Tired. Tired. Tired. Tired of living in a world that’s getting worse and worse. Tired of loss. Tired of working and giving everything to the greedy government. Tired of being ripped off. Tired of student loans, never having enough money. Tired of being taken advantage of by their children. Tired of being tired. Tired everything.
I listen to their anger, their loss of hope, their voices flat and dead. I listen to people I truly care about and anything I say sounds trite and ridiculous. When people are in pain all I can do is validate that pain because it’s the only thing that’s real. I just keep saying, “I’m sorry,” over and over again, because I am sorry and I know what it’s like to be where they are and I know that the words of hope that fall from the lips of others can make things worse. I just say, “I’m sorry. I know the pain must be unbearable. Is there anything I can do?”
I hate that false and unrealistic expectations, put on all of us by a hateful and controlling few, can cause such massive devastation and ruin so many lives. I hate that people are cruel…that pain tops pleasure, that love is something people believe they need to find. I hate the way people are held down. How they are judged by the media, and forced to hate themselves because they don’t measure up the the standards of air-brushed models who stare hungrily at them from the covers of magazines. I hate male violence against women and children. I hate that men will NOT STOP. I hate the way animals are tortured and murdered so that people can EAT their flesh and wear their skin. I hate what we have done to Native Americans, to the environment, to our food. I hate how life twists kindness and uses it against people. I hate that so many people are suffering because we are allowing our society to destroy us…one by one.